|i desperately want to contact you again, i'm ready and the time is right.
||[Feb. 1st, 2015|11:51 pm]
but i keep holding back trying to hope you come forward. but you won't, ever again, will you? i wish you'd say clearly.|
i want to tell you i'm on the right path again, i want to apologise for everything, if anything i did that was bad. i want to show you my progress, the quiet hope i have within. to be completely honest. to start over. i want to show you how proud i am of me. not because i need validation. just because i have hardly anyone to share it with that would understand. i want to share the details of the mysterious wonders that i at least half understand. i want to ask for a nudge, some encouragement in the right direction that i want to go. i want to share and love and give and receive and be whole. i just want a friend. you've already got that, you don't need/want me. it's just, i haven;t felt anything good like that with people in a long time.